After Christmas

Its been along time that i didn't update my facebook. Erm..Christmas was Fun..Seriously its better then last year. Way better.. =) hmm...Anyway, New Year is coming up. Any plans?? Don't know yet.. Anyway, I miss my friend MANDA! miss hanging out with her. Even the rest of my FRIENDS!! ='( *sob2*... 


-News-


School is starting next year. I think I'm going back to school on the 5th Jan. ERmm. Well, I'm going to meet all of my friends. But, Zal my close friend is not going to join us.. next year.. OUR final year in school. I'm going to miss her damn much..!!! seriously I am going to miss her! It's sad to see her leave Kuching. But its for her future..So, Im prove of her and i will always support her no matter what. =(
Well, that's life.. =(  Anyway, I can't stop here.. life has to move on..


-Single-


Okay, now...today... I am single already. I'm single already for few weeks.. Erm..I've been trying to move on.. I want to move on. I really do want to move on. But I just can't.. Honestly, I still "Love" him.. I actually still have feelings towards him. But I just can't move on with the relationship we had any more. I don't believe in this Love thingg any more..Honestly, I'm kinda scared to feel the hurt-ness again. I just don't want to face the pain any more. Its hard to believe it, but even I can't believe it too.. I mean, I just don't believe in "Love" the feeling and all that. I can't seem to find my happiness. Right now, I'm still finding the path that I want for my future.. That's all.. I'm so so sorry if I ever hurt the ones I love. ='( 


HAHAHA! I don't even know why I type this.. Its so CHILDISH! ARGGHH!! 
Okay, Guess that I better stop now then.. haaa...

Back home

You You You You You You You..

I don't know, all i can say is YOU?
Erm. I'm being speechles.. Just got back from KL? I mean today i arrived Kuching around 5 something. My brother waited for me an the airport..

Moving on..

Erm.. My mum nearly cried when she hugged me.. haha! she didnt show it to me but, you know.. you can see it through her eyes.. haha.. but anyway, I'm happy to be home.

Flightless Bird

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins

All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys

Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair

Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Nursing my sore blunt tongue

Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks

Pissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures thrown in the cold

And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you

Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth

Big pill stuck going down.

I love this song. I discover this song from Dawn Sara.  I don't get the meaning of this song but the tune of this song is very nice. I like it very much.

Haha. I seriously don't get this song actually. This song is one of the soundtrack from the movie "Twilight".

For Once

Just move on with your life please. I'm telling you properly. Talking to you properly. Please don't make me HATE you like hell?!?!? Are you still in Kindigarden?? Until you don't understand what am i saying to you?
You're just making your self look stupid. I'm just telling you nicely for this time. Don't la push to the limit.. Please i'm begging you. My feelings change towards you already. You can't force people to love YOU right? You can't force ME to love you right? Please.. I'm asking you nicely..

You think you can treat me this way? The way you used to treat me? Come la. I'm not scared of you at all. You hurt me, your not going to see my face anymore. Stop making yourself look like a fool!
From way i'm thinking right now. You're so childish. You want to hate me for doing this to you. Go ahead. I don't mind. As long as i'm not in the relationship with you. Then i'm happy with own life being single. =D

pictures..

Well, this are the pictures about my cousin TIM.. haha.. 

Great 'Cousin'

Haha.. Tim is a great cousin. Well, odviously he pick and send me back home all the time.. Only if we go out together with his friends and mine too.. Hahah.. He is always there for me and my friend. For example at the 7eleven.. Hahah. Don't wanna talk about it. So funny and scary! yeah. I'll upload his picture later. =)

Tim looks gay.. Haha. Sorry Tim if you're reading this. Later i'll uplaod you and your gay partner. All right?..
but when it comes to relationship problems? He will be EVERY emotional.. seriously I'm telling you.. But what can I do. That's the Tim i know. Anyway, hope that he could find a girl who love him seriously and sincerely..  =)

I think that's all. I'm just bored. So, I'm writing just just to kill my time. I CAN'T SLEEP! =( don't know why too..

Kays, that's all.. I'll upload his picture later.. =)

(12.24 a.m)

Chilling..

On the 8 December my cousin *tim*, Dawn and I went to airport to meet my cousin's friend who is working at the Star Bucks. Anyway, our journey started with my cousin pick me up at home around 7.15. *I think* then after that we pick dawn up at her house. I guess that she was bored while waiting for me to pick her up.

When we were at the airport, Tim went to look for his friend at StarBucks. Me and dawn went to KFC and have our dinner.. YUMMY! After few hours of chit-chatting. Me and dawn went to meet my cousin at StarBucks.

This are some pictures that we took when we are there at StarBuck the whole night. =D

THE END!

My Trip to Kampung with Dawn Sara.

I went back to my dad's kampung on Tuesday, December 1st.
Yeahh.. Its all right. =) Meet my aunty and cousins plus uncle and my grandmother. She's actually sick. So that's why my dad and I went back to Kampung. Beside that, my aunty from Saudi was here. She came with her husband who is a Dutch. Yeap2.. Get merried with a Bidayuh lady. LOL! haha..

Anyway, here are some pictures that I took while I was there with Dawn. Anyway, we did enjoy ourself. *i guess*. In the middle of processing by taking pictures, Dawn's camera batt died! So sad.. Anyway, hope you enjoy.. =D

fun.. fun.. fun..

SOrry for the blur-ness.. Its my phone. The cam sucks during night time. Sorry..

owh owh owh..

Hello, yesterday was the 4th dec. I slept over at dawn's house. Well, we have a amazing night and day.. It was absolutely great!! Haha. Since I can get to do what ever i want to do.. I will upload the pictures tomorrow. I'm kinda lazy want to take out my memo card in my phone. I'll upload it tomorrow all right. No worries yea.. hehe..

Just Smile.

Having nothing..

You're lies are all Bullshit..!

I love you so much..

I can't move on any more with our relationship..

I don't to have a broken heart in the future.. I know it hurts to let go..but I must try.

I must try.. I must make my heart strong enough to let you go...

ITs working..

step by step..

YOU deserved a better girl for you. Just not me.

I know how hurt it feels.. but, this is what it called 'LOVE'

'LOVE' does cost pain.. its the matter of fact that you know how to take good care off it..

I'm truly sorry for everything..

100% in love turns too 0% if love..

I'm truly sorry..

I don't want to play the broken hearted girl..

No.. not any more..