His name makes me smile..

RITCHIE

RITCHIE

RITCHIE

GEE!

Friends

Same place but diffrent 

month and day.

Feel ..

You're always here to brighten up my day.. 

(yeahhh rightt) 

You're always here when I need you..

(hhmm.. are you sure?)

15 mints later..

Only three words I could to say to you.

I love you!

(really?)

Figure it out! 

Ugly Truth Part 1

Truth?? 

I don't know what are you thinking. 

I don't know what are you trying to do. What is your intention? 

I don't know how I felt towards you.. 

I don't know that this is right or not. 

What are you trying to tell me?

Am I good enough for you? or I'm not? 

Let me guess.

These words keep pop-ing in my head. Round and round and round.

I'm trying to figure it out. I'm trying to figure YOU out.

I guess I never have the change to figure you out because you were never around. 

You were never around when I need you.

You were never here.

Never.

So, what am I suppose to do?

Maybe Its not the time.

Maybe its not the time for me to figure you out.

I won't want to hope so much. 

I feel so lost.

I do think of you everyday.

BUT not every minute, every second.

I feel like there's nothing there to feel at all.

I feel that when I say I love you, those three words.

After saying it, I said to myself? Are you sure? 

Honestly,

Am I in love with you??

That's the funny thing.

Happy Birthday My Dearest ZAL! =D

Dearest ZAL

Happy Birthday ZAL! <3

May all the best in life dear! 

Love you owes!

Never knew..

Tomorrow it may change.. 
I never thought it can be this way.. Its just a dream come true that we could turn out this way.. 
Who knows I might be a fool, but one day the truth will be out there.. 
Just so you know, I'll be here for you if you need me..  I'll be right by you're side..
I miss you standing by side.. 
Only God knows what I am feeling now.. Let me tell you how it feel.. I want to look into you're eyes and let you know that I love you.. 

Happy Birthday Daryl!!

Happy Birthday Day Daryl!! 

May God bless you always!! 

Ehem2.. Somebody is getting older and older and older already.. =D

Take Care and have a Blessed birthday!!!

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Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone.. 

* err... Err.. I'm just bored now ehy.. Ermm.being so frustrated lately..Haizh..

sometimes I regret the things that i've done in the pass.. But yeah.I'm happy of choosing this path..
Hrmm.. I gotta solve some probs, then I'll be HAPPY once again! 

gossh!! why am I so stupid!! argh! *blur-ness* now.. GEE!! :D

HOTNESS COMING THROUGH!!!

Bradley Cooper!!!!

Ooohh.. Look a his body.. HOT HOT!!!

Justin Timberlake!

Garghhh!!!!

*speechless*

GAAhhh!!

Sorry... I don't love you anymore.. I've moved on with my life so as my love towards you which has fade away.. 

Ermm. Its just stupid to think of the pass which hurts alot. But with the suport of my friends and family.. I think i will make it. Don't worry about me.. I'll be just fine..

Sorry..
Ohh gosh! I sound so mean!! DArmnnn!

After Christmas

Its been along time that i didn't update my facebook. Erm..Christmas was Fun..Seriously its better then last year. Way better.. =) hmm...Anyway, New Year is coming up. Any plans?? Don't know yet.. Anyway, I miss my friend MANDA! miss hanging out with her. Even the rest of my FRIENDS!! ='( *sob2*... 


-News-


School is starting next year. I think I'm going back to school on the 5th Jan. ERmm. Well, I'm going to meet all of my friends. But, Zal my close friend is not going to join us.. next year.. OUR final year in school. I'm going to miss her damn much..!!! seriously I am going to miss her! It's sad to see her leave Kuching. But its for her future..So, Im prove of her and i will always support her no matter what. =(
Well, that's life.. =(  Anyway, I can't stop here.. life has to move on..


-Single-


Okay, now...today... I am single already. I'm single already for few weeks.. Erm..I've been trying to move on.. I want to move on. I really do want to move on. But I just can't.. Honestly, I still "Love" him.. I actually still have feelings towards him. But I just can't move on with the relationship we had any more. I don't believe in this Love thingg any more..Honestly, I'm kinda scared to feel the hurt-ness again. I just don't want to face the pain any more. Its hard to believe it, but even I can't believe it too.. I mean, I just don't believe in "Love" the feeling and all that. I can't seem to find my happiness. Right now, I'm still finding the path that I want for my future.. That's all.. I'm so so sorry if I ever hurt the ones I love. ='( 


HAHAHA! I don't even know why I type this.. Its so CHILDISH! ARGGHH!! 
Okay, Guess that I better stop now then.. haaa...

Back home

You You You You You You You..

I don't know, all i can say is YOU?
Erm. I'm being speechles.. Just got back from KL? I mean today i arrived Kuching around 5 something. My brother waited for me an the airport..

Moving on..

Erm.. My mum nearly cried when she hugged me.. haha! she didnt show it to me but, you know.. you can see it through her eyes.. haha.. but anyway, I'm happy to be home.

Flightless Bird

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins

All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys

Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair

Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Nursing my sore blunt tongue

Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks

Pissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures thrown in the cold

And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you

Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth

Big pill stuck going down.

I love this song. I discover this song from Dawn Sara.  I don't get the meaning of this song but the tune of this song is very nice. I like it very much.

Haha. I seriously don't get this song actually. This song is one of the soundtrack from the movie "Twilight".

For Once

Just move on with your life please. I'm telling you properly. Talking to you properly. Please don't make me HATE you like hell?!?!? Are you still in Kindigarden?? Until you don't understand what am i saying to you?
You're just making your self look stupid. I'm just telling you nicely for this time. Don't la push to the limit.. Please i'm begging you. My feelings change towards you already. You can't force people to love YOU right? You can't force ME to love you right? Please.. I'm asking you nicely..

You think you can treat me this way? The way you used to treat me? Come la. I'm not scared of you at all. You hurt me, your not going to see my face anymore. Stop making yourself look like a fool!
From way i'm thinking right now. You're so childish. You want to hate me for doing this to you. Go ahead. I don't mind. As long as i'm not in the relationship with you. Then i'm happy with own life being single. =D

pictures..

Well, this are the pictures about my cousin TIM.. haha.. 

Great 'Cousin'

Haha.. Tim is a great cousin. Well, odviously he pick and send me back home all the time.. Only if we go out together with his friends and mine too.. Hahah.. He is always there for me and my friend. For example at the 7eleven.. Hahah. Don't wanna talk about it. So funny and scary! yeah. I'll upload his picture later. =)

Tim looks gay.. Haha. Sorry Tim if you're reading this. Later i'll uplaod you and your gay partner. All right?..
but when it comes to relationship problems? He will be EVERY emotional.. seriously I'm telling you.. But what can I do. That's the Tim i know. Anyway, hope that he could find a girl who love him seriously and sincerely..  =)

I think that's all. I'm just bored. So, I'm writing just just to kill my time. I CAN'T SLEEP! =( don't know why too..

Kays, that's all.. I'll upload his picture later.. =)

(12.24 a.m)

Chilling..

On the 8 December my cousin *tim*, Dawn and I went to airport to meet my cousin's friend who is working at the Star Bucks. Anyway, our journey started with my cousin pick me up at home around 7.15. *I think* then after that we pick dawn up at her house. I guess that she was bored while waiting for me to pick her up.

When we were at the airport, Tim went to look for his friend at StarBucks. Me and dawn went to KFC and have our dinner.. YUMMY! After few hours of chit-chatting. Me and dawn went to meet my cousin at StarBucks.

This are some pictures that we took when we are there at StarBuck the whole night. =D

THE END!

My Trip to Kampung with Dawn Sara.

I went back to my dad's kampung on Tuesday, December 1st.
Yeahh.. Its all right. =) Meet my aunty and cousins plus uncle and my grandmother. She's actually sick. So that's why my dad and I went back to Kampung. Beside that, my aunty from Saudi was here. She came with her husband who is a Dutch. Yeap2.. Get merried with a Bidayuh lady. LOL! haha..

Anyway, here are some pictures that I took while I was there with Dawn. Anyway, we did enjoy ourself. *i guess*. In the middle of processing by taking pictures, Dawn's camera batt died! So sad.. Anyway, hope you enjoy.. =D

fun.. fun.. fun..

SOrry for the blur-ness.. Its my phone. The cam sucks during night time. Sorry..

owh owh owh..

Hello, yesterday was the 4th dec. I slept over at dawn's house. Well, we have a amazing night and day.. It was absolutely great!! Haha. Since I can get to do what ever i want to do.. I will upload the pictures tomorrow. I'm kinda lazy want to take out my memo card in my phone. I'll upload it tomorrow all right. No worries yea.. hehe..